I’m here in LA – very late and I'm anxiously awaiting my departure to Hawaii tomorrow in the AM.
Hmm – so I’m in a hotel that looks as if it is from the movie "Vacancy". I'm wondering now..was it really worth the $15 saved? Look for me in the morning, if I make it to my first cup of coffee – I know it’s all good.
The real kicker is the sliding glass door that will not lock, did I mention I’m on the ground floor?
Pretty much anyone can jump the damn brick wall and bombard me in the middle of the night.
Why am I staying here? Again, to save a buck.
I do not know...
What the fuck am I doing here?
I pray to GOD I am safe this evening.
I will try and close one eye.
But first I must eat my pastrami crap sandwich from the US Airways flight – I had a premonition that I would be waiting at the airport too long for my freakin luggage so I bought the way too expense crap sandwich on the plane. (It's actually not too bad)
The flight was at least pretty descent…a woman gave me a nice compliment – stating I was stunning, and looked like a British actress by the name of Emma something or other, neither one of us knew the last name and I can’t say I know the actress – but it was a nice to hear considering I was a rumpled mess, eyes bloodshot from the 5 hr flight – I don’t think the woman realizes how much I appreciated her words.
So back to the ‘Vacancy’ room - the ONLY thing I’m loving and feeling comfort in right now is the beauty coming from my CD player, Nine Inch Nails All That Could’ve Been, Still. Have NIN, will travel…
It is my only saving grace – that and a flight to Hawaii tomorrow!
GOD please help me make it through this evening!
Just get me to Hawaii. Please GOD!
You know what, even if the freaky murderers that own this hotel come to me – at least I’ll die happy and in peace with music that takes me to a different place.
Ok stop now, my head is not right and I’m starting to freak myself out, must try and close that one eye. But first, let me move that desk in front of the sliding glass door – at least I will have a bit of warning with the fools stubbing their toes on the legs!! Yeah! What a great plan.
I can’t close that one eye - now I miss my little people and not so little people – David, Kiki and Michael. God I love being an aunt!
Here I am with no access to the internet, can’t even check the Nin blog!
I am here in the same city as the maestro, the power and beauty of his music takes me to places I've always knew were there but just couldn't seem to find.
Such wonderful daydreams coming to mind – oh how I would absolutely love to meet this person – or even come within a breath – not even say a word – just one look into those eyes.
I would dare to see his soul. I’ve heard it in his music, and it touches my heart and floods my mind. It heals me, it calms me.
As I said have NIN, will travel;
And close eyes – must close eyes – go to sleep little girl…
Feb 13 – Honolulu –
Made it
Today is my poopoo-head, David’s Birthday!! (corny aunt moment)
Love him to pieces!
But now I am here –
Beautiful warm weather – beach clean and pretty
But what the fuck – not expecting soooooo much noise. Where’s the paradise?
Ok – go to the water – it’s all about the water and waves – and I am free.
So far today – ventured a bit
A lot of people, too many people.
Still not my 'dream' vacation
I need an isolated island with very few people with really the only noise to hear is the breaking of the waves!
But I am not complaining can’t beat this considering I could be back home with shit snow!
Snow is beautiful too - but I'll take a picture of it any day vs. experiencing it.
With all of the beauty – I can’t help but notice all of the homeless.
In fact I had a chat with a gentleman named Robert.
He bummed 3 cigarettes off of me and was hinting towards handouts of money, food etc.
Now I feel really guilty that I didn’t give him some money –
But the other half of me feels like if he needs money, earn it - damn it!
I don’t care if you have to collect cans for the time being...
Please don’t beg
But anyway, I chatted and was a bit uncomfortable at first – and felt guilty about that!
He told me I was beautiful, my mother is beautiful, everyone’s beautiful. Yeah.
He felt the need to tell me about his Japanese girlfriend who he was going to see soon. Sure..
but I let him talk, and talk, and talk, ....
Finally, I said farewell and went on my way. Didn’t have much time to ponder.
I had to go and meet up with Mark
Ate some Mexican fare, of all things, but it was quite tasty
Then meandered to the international market
Lots of junk –
Mark can’t disconnect from home – although he was chatting with his new love interest, so I can't fault him for that, but also his buddy from Cali – GEEZ! Disconnect dude you’re in Hawaii.
Around 5pm we agreed we needed some sleep, as we both felt like 2 sacks of shit, who had no sleep for various different reasons over the last week. But because we are so hard core – we plan on meeting up at 8pm for some paaaarrrrtttttyyyyying.
8pm + 3 hours...
Ummm – it’s now 11pm – oh sure we are so hard core – fuck it – my eyes will not stay open for 1 more second, must have mmooooorrrrreeee sleep please.
Feb 14 – I am an anti Valentines Day person
In my opinion this has got to be the most ridiculous day of the year.
I love – and love passionately – but I do it every day!
Anyway – Pearl Harbor is on tap – Really excited about this.
It brings chills up my spine – so I’m off.
Feb 15
Drunk
But just so that I don’t’ forget.
Went to North Shore today –
AWESOME
Surfers – Gigantic waves
AWESOME
Beautiful beaches!
I could stay here for the rest of my life, and live my life the way I was supposed – BEACH BUM – strumming my guitar every night, wake up the next day to capture the perfect wave – and do it all over again – oh yes – my reality couldn’t be further from this…but I will keep this fantasy stored away for those cold, mean days.
But I digress – North Shore:
AWESOME visited Sunset Beach
Beautiful
Waimea, I think
(Ask Mark)
Hung out and soaked up the sun while watching the surfers waiting for their perfect wave.
I longed terribly to be out their with them. Such freedom and exhiliration.
Tonight went to senior frogs – OH GOD what on earth was I thinking??? Had a ton of fun though – But really not my cup of tea
Blah blah
Same old, same old, why are there so many slutty females in the world?
But what the hell do I care - A cute young thing came to me.
Forgot his name already.
But he was cute –he asked if Mark was my husband or boyfriend – ha what a laugh in half that is. Ah..that would be NO.
I've got to say - it was nice being hit on - but I had to set him straight after a bit of small talk..
I enlightened him to the fact that I was not there to hook up.
I let him off of the hook
He was cute though.
Feb 16 and 17 -
More sun and fun - went to Diamond Head -
Found a fab little Hawaiin band -
bought way too many souvenirs.
Found another 'bum' to talk to - I am the ultimate magnet for bums and street people
and I say this in the nicest way - because I will talk to you everytime, but do not ask me for money.
This particular gentleman was an artist - we'll call him 'BB' because I can't remember his name, and that is how signs his work. He didn't ask me for money, he asked for a cigarette -and for payment he gave ME one of his pieces made from drift wood.
I was touched - and very appreciative - ! You know what they say, never judge the book by it's cover....
On the last day - what the hell - Robert found me on the pier - only he didn't remember me.
For some reason he just honed in me on his mountain bike - out of all the people - he found me.
So we sat on the pier and chatted a bit. Somehow we got onto the topic of music.!! I love it!
He told me about all of his influences, greatful dead being the primary - but he also went on about the record industry, and how they've been ripping musicians off for years. It was a bit surreal to be having a chat with Robert the street guy about the state of the music industry.
But I enjoyed every minute of it!
Time to go home! Yippee!
Hmm – so I’m in a hotel that looks as if it is from the movie "Vacancy". I'm wondering now..was it really worth the $15 saved? Look for me in the morning, if I make it to my first cup of coffee – I know it’s all good.
The real kicker is the sliding glass door that will not lock, did I mention I’m on the ground floor?
Pretty much anyone can jump the damn brick wall and bombard me in the middle of the night.
Why am I staying here? Again, to save a buck.
I do not know...
What the fuck am I doing here?
I pray to GOD I am safe this evening.
I will try and close one eye.
But first I must eat my pastrami crap sandwich from the US Airways flight – I had a premonition that I would be waiting at the airport too long for my freakin luggage so I bought the way too expense crap sandwich on the plane. (It's actually not too bad)
The flight was at least pretty descent…a woman gave me a nice compliment – stating I was stunning, and looked like a British actress by the name of Emma something or other, neither one of us knew the last name and I can’t say I know the actress – but it was a nice to hear considering I was a rumpled mess, eyes bloodshot from the 5 hr flight – I don’t think the woman realizes how much I appreciated her words.
So back to the ‘Vacancy’ room - the ONLY thing I’m loving and feeling comfort in right now is the beauty coming from my CD player, Nine Inch Nails All That Could’ve Been, Still. Have NIN, will travel…
It is my only saving grace – that and a flight to Hawaii tomorrow!
GOD please help me make it through this evening!
Just get me to Hawaii. Please GOD!
You know what, even if the freaky murderers that own this hotel come to me – at least I’ll die happy and in peace with music that takes me to a different place.
Ok stop now, my head is not right and I’m starting to freak myself out, must try and close that one eye. But first, let me move that desk in front of the sliding glass door – at least I will have a bit of warning with the fools stubbing their toes on the legs!! Yeah! What a great plan.
I can’t close that one eye - now I miss my little people and not so little people – David, Kiki and Michael. God I love being an aunt!
Here I am with no access to the internet, can’t even check the Nin blog!
I am here in the same city as the maestro, the power and beauty of his music takes me to places I've always knew were there but just couldn't seem to find.
Such wonderful daydreams coming to mind – oh how I would absolutely love to meet this person – or even come within a breath – not even say a word – just one look into those eyes.
I would dare to see his soul. I’ve heard it in his music, and it touches my heart and floods my mind. It heals me, it calms me.
As I said have NIN, will travel;
And close eyes – must close eyes – go to sleep little girl…
Feb 13 – Honolulu –
Made it
Today is my poopoo-head, David’s Birthday!! (corny aunt moment)
Love him to pieces!
But now I am here –
Beautiful warm weather – beach clean and pretty
But what the fuck – not expecting soooooo much noise. Where’s the paradise?
Ok – go to the water – it’s all about the water and waves – and I am free.
So far today – ventured a bit
A lot of people, too many people.
Still not my 'dream' vacation
I need an isolated island with very few people with really the only noise to hear is the breaking of the waves!
But I am not complaining can’t beat this considering I could be back home with shit snow!
Snow is beautiful too - but I'll take a picture of it any day vs. experiencing it.
With all of the beauty – I can’t help but notice all of the homeless.
In fact I had a chat with a gentleman named Robert.
He bummed 3 cigarettes off of me and was hinting towards handouts of money, food etc.
Now I feel really guilty that I didn’t give him some money –
But the other half of me feels like if he needs money, earn it - damn it!
I don’t care if you have to collect cans for the time being...
Please don’t beg
But anyway, I chatted and was a bit uncomfortable at first – and felt guilty about that!
He told me I was beautiful, my mother is beautiful, everyone’s beautiful. Yeah.
He felt the need to tell me about his Japanese girlfriend who he was going to see soon. Sure..
but I let him talk, and talk, and talk, ....
Finally, I said farewell and went on my way. Didn’t have much time to ponder.
I had to go and meet up with Mark
Ate some Mexican fare, of all things, but it was quite tasty
Then meandered to the international market
Lots of junk –
Mark can’t disconnect from home – although he was chatting with his new love interest, so I can't fault him for that, but also his buddy from Cali – GEEZ! Disconnect dude you’re in Hawaii.
Around 5pm we agreed we needed some sleep, as we both felt like 2 sacks of shit, who had no sleep for various different reasons over the last week. But because we are so hard core – we plan on meeting up at 8pm for some paaaarrrrtttttyyyyying.
8pm + 3 hours...
Ummm – it’s now 11pm – oh sure we are so hard core – fuck it – my eyes will not stay open for 1 more second, must have mmooooorrrrreeee sleep please.
Feb 14 – I am an anti Valentines Day person
In my opinion this has got to be the most ridiculous day of the year.
I love – and love passionately – but I do it every day!
Anyway – Pearl Harbor is on tap – Really excited about this.
It brings chills up my spine – so I’m off.
Feb 15
Drunk
But just so that I don’t’ forget.
Went to North Shore today –
AWESOME
Surfers – Gigantic waves
AWESOME
Beautiful beaches!
I could stay here for the rest of my life, and live my life the way I was supposed – BEACH BUM – strumming my guitar every night, wake up the next day to capture the perfect wave – and do it all over again – oh yes – my reality couldn’t be further from this…but I will keep this fantasy stored away for those cold, mean days.
But I digress – North Shore:
AWESOME visited Sunset Beach
Beautiful
Waimea, I think
(Ask Mark)
Hung out and soaked up the sun while watching the surfers waiting for their perfect wave.
I longed terribly to be out their with them. Such freedom and exhiliration.
Tonight went to senior frogs – OH GOD what on earth was I thinking??? Had a ton of fun though – But really not my cup of tea
Blah blah
Same old, same old, why are there so many slutty females in the world?
But what the hell do I care - A cute young thing came to me.
Forgot his name already.
But he was cute –he asked if Mark was my husband or boyfriend – ha what a laugh in half that is. Ah..that would be NO.
I've got to say - it was nice being hit on - but I had to set him straight after a bit of small talk..
I enlightened him to the fact that I was not there to hook up.
I let him off of the hook
He was cute though.
Feb 16 and 17 -
More sun and fun - went to Diamond Head -
Found a fab little Hawaiin band -
bought way too many souvenirs.
Found another 'bum' to talk to - I am the ultimate magnet for bums and street people
and I say this in the nicest way - because I will talk to you everytime, but do not ask me for money.
This particular gentleman was an artist - we'll call him 'BB' because I can't remember his name, and that is how signs his work. He didn't ask me for money, he asked for a cigarette -and for payment he gave ME one of his pieces made from drift wood.
I was touched - and very appreciative - ! You know what they say, never judge the book by it's cover....
On the last day - what the hell - Robert found me on the pier - only he didn't remember me.
For some reason he just honed in me on his mountain bike - out of all the people - he found me.
So we sat on the pier and chatted a bit. Somehow we got onto the topic of music.!! I love it!
He told me about all of his influences, greatful dead being the primary - but he also went on about the record industry, and how they've been ripping musicians off for years. It was a bit surreal to be having a chat with Robert the street guy about the state of the music industry.
But I enjoyed every minute of it!
Time to go home! Yippee!
