Courage Of Conviction

And now I am renewed and refreshed for 2010. I've turned a corner, with even more passion and conviction as before. Still much to learn and do, and there are days where I can't even keep up with my brain. I can no longer sit still and let wrong rule the day. The environment in which I work in is seriously damaged and unbelievably the entire workforce has succumbed to the 'Victim' Mentality. While I realize my endeavors may end up being fruitless, while I'm there, at least I know I am doing everything within my power to pursue positive change.

On love, well I am rich in love. While I have been 'away' from the boy /girl thing for awhile, it was needed. I now know where my head is and after much reflection and going backwards to figure this shit out of the past...I know what my part was and where I went wrong. It takes two to destroy a relationship. No one is ever truly innocent. But I'm a better person for going through that hell / heaven! My heart and soul are embedded in the 3 most important people in my life: Michael, Kiersten and David. My nephews and niece. Why? Because it's love. They helped me understand and see that my life is relevant and I do matter. This was something I couldn't really see or didn't want to see. I know that while they grow up, I have an opportunity to be the best role model I can possibly be. That doesn't mean perfection. Please! They can learn from my short comings! But above all, they know that I will never judge them. They know that I will always be there for them (not in place of their parents). And Even more so, they know I love my sister. And I am there every step of the way helping them understand and not be so frustrated with the parents when they can't get what they want...or wonder why mom is in a bad mood! I have a responsibility to Carol and Steve too!

There are days when that saying 'my cup runneth over' is so real to me. I didn't know love until they stepped into my lives.

At the end of the day, I really don't know where I'm going, but I know it's going to be good. And I have no worries holding me prisoner.

MOFOBOY25 - I LOVE YOU

Every once in awhile I stumble on a precious little gem on the internet social networking pile up of junk...

Today I am thankful for Twitter and the NIN HOTLINE Twit spot.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

Sunday morning, nothing better to do but sift through updates from people I don't even know, and there it was...a simple little update from the NIN Hotline advising of rare Nine Inch Nails rehearsal recordings 2005-2006 ERA. Curiosity got me, go to the link, hmmm...shit I am so not up on technology today - torrents?  Surely, torrents are not meant for me...

And they still aren't (I'm educating myself on the topic at the moment).

Being a NIN fan, you must keep up with everything technologically speaking, and then some.

In the blink of an eye, you miss out on so much.  

This time around I at least was only 2 1/2 weeks out of the loop.

After several attempts at downloading from some links the ETS crew were posting, I finally got myself into heaven.

Oh joy of all joys...what downloaded onto my brand new Mac was a gift from god.

In this case, god is MOFOBOY25.  He's blessed us with these rehearsal gems.

But the biggest blessing of all:  SUNSPOTS!  

OH god - I have forever wanted to hear this live - and here it is, close enough.

Simply awesome.

THANK YOU MOFOBOY25 whoever you are. 

Nine Inch Nails NA 2008 Tour (the four of us are dying)

some highlights

70, On This Day

Wishing of a time when you were here with us...

Wishing of a time you laughed with us...

Wishing of a time...

Thinking of you, on this day...what could've been.

Wishing you what should've been the happiest of all Birthday's, a milestone of 70.

70

Too many years now, and yet you still remain with me...

Some may have forgotten, too wrapped in their own lives.

Too busy to remember, too tired to care...

You will never be forgotten, and in my heart you will stay...

Happy Birthday, Daddy...

I miss you, I love you.

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You know you have found true friendship when...

...you can go several months without speaking and pick up where you left off as if no time had passed at all. No guilt trips, no hurt feelings, NOTHING held against you.
They understand that life is crazy - and well, sometimes listening to other peoples shit or even spilling your shit out to others just gets exhausting!

...you can fart openly and without embarrassment in their presence. And everytime you can count on having a real good, side splitting laugh no matter what.

more to come...

oh sweet blog of mine...

have I failed thee?
please forgive me, for I am only but a muse..
my overwhelmed mind has experienced something akin to grid lock.
oh blog - oh blog of mine..
I will not give up, I shall sort this out, and begin to purge these thoughts and ideas slowly..
I shall neglect thee no more...